The Mind shenanigans of Single Woman

One never knows their future …unless they claim to be pyschics…in which case, their vision is still objective majority of times. Astrology, numerology and other 'logies' can only go so far as to predict the upcoming events as good or bad at designated times.

Definitely not someone who is used to prior planning. More like..go with the flow kind of person. So while in late 20s, i was happy to be single, with a job to ease my anxiety of career beginning. It was a happy happy phase overall.

In the early 30s and late 20s,attending friends' weddings is also like one of the milestones. Watching those with whom you walked to school,now walking the aisle. Never thought it to be an emotional moment until i felt happy tears rolling down my cheeks in one of my close friend’s wedding.

Don’t know if many can relate the precarious balance a Indian woman holds between career and thoughts of getting married. With each comes the thought of losing the other. And why is that…if you have lived it, you would know it. Atleast majority would agree with me am sure. If not, you are some of the lucky ones.

The post quarter milestone or the gravity of approaching 30 in life hits majority of us not during our birthdays,it hits suddenly when the same friends post snaps of their kids. Baaamm!!! It hits you that now you are officially aunts or godmothers, that life and time literally changed in a blink of an eye, realisations of different categories bombard your brains at the speed of bullet train . There are posts of promotions,new houses,new career breaks literally back to back. While we celebrate their victories as good friends, with it comes a reflection or revelations of our current scenario.

The cool single status begins to look like “Forever alone” signboard as you don’t see a potential ‘plus one' in your circle,nor in far fetched unwanted relatives.

The optimism and conscience try and fail miserably in attempt to brace this impact.

The recovery involves seeking other single friends and those who are still in the same realm of progress as us, some self-help books and the saying “It’s never too late". or each person, the other person’s life seems like a rosy picture. We all have envisioned or envied, atleast more than once, living someone else’s lives. Not knowing that at the same moment, someone somewhere dreams of living our life.

Not all have their lives figured out. And it’s okay! If we could map out and plan our life like the day’s events…there would never have been surprises or coincidences. Happy or not-so-happy even. The fear of not having reached the 'must have achieved milestones under 30’ much like my other counterparts did shake me out of my reverie of 'let time take its course’. But it also brought to my attention,of the very little knowledge I have of my own untapped potential.

Sometimes, people like me, see our surroundings and believe that things will eventually happen to us on time. With time, we experience circumstances which change our stance and even shape our personality.

Here’s to embracing life post 30years, where my quest to know myself, finding my true calling, of 'Love' and lots more begins.